How Do You Handle Life In The Present Economy And Present Times?

im nearly 33 , lived in a flat for 5 years in a better area than ive lived before, live on sickness benefit for complex psychological disorders .
i grew up in a loving working class to middle class roman catholic family, but my parents divorced when i was in late teens.
one of my ‘ disorders ‘ is very bad ocd symptoms , obsessive thoughts , i always have bad anxiety , panic and are nervous each day.
at the moment , im worried about ; my bills for gas and electric have risen by 10 pound .
i dont own many possessions except a desktop custom built computer / internet a few old cds/ dvds / books – medieval collectors , swords etc – and thats about it.
ive always obsessed for years that i need material items in order to be happy , i get anxious when i hear about someone owning ; a lot of vinyl records , vhs tapes , big televisions etc and all those material possessions because i obsess ” those are what i need to ” but can’t afford them.
also, in the present economy , i worry about anything major happening to the benefits i receive , which are a lifeline to me.
i consider myself to be classed as vulnerable person , there are a lot of things out of my control which cause me great anxiety .
if im really angry or anxious i smash things up with my sword , like cardboard boxes etc – but it doesn’t totally relieve the stress.
anyone understand at all or have strategies to handle these worries ?